Today’s my last day of class. Going to take a final, pick up my things for graduation and return books to the library. All this has me feeling a little morbid because wow, this IS my last day. I won’t ever go back again.

I didn’t make a close knit group of friends so I won’t really MISS anyone. More like I’ll miss the place.

I better get ready to go.

  • Tomorrow’s my last day of class!
  • Got an A in biology and an A- in art history. I was so afraid.
  • Birthday’s in three days
  • I should really go on livejournal and make a post
  • Had a conversation with a certain someone and it was weird and he wants to see me tomorrow and it’s all just weird
  • Maybe I’ll shut you out again and pretend you weren’t sane and make you believe it

After Thursday, I will never see you again. Seeing you yesterday just confirmed everything and made it final. You stand next to me and I can’t look at you. Not because my nerves were bad or anything. I just didn’t want to look at you. You let me down. Sometimes, I wonder if I’m the one that actually let you down, but I’ll never know now.

I was going to try to be your friend. But I don’t even want that. It’s not that I have any lingering feelings. Because I don’t. Something inside just shut off when it comes to you. Ever since that day, it has never been the same. I tell myself that maybe it’s my fault. But if you had something to say, you would have said it. If I mattered at all to you as a friend, you would have tried.

So, that’s it. I’m going to finish my finals, and then attend graduation June 1st. And I’m leaving everything behind. Including you. And I’m okay with that.
Finals week is upon me.

Three finals this week: statistics, biology, art history. American lit is next week.

My birthday is next week too. Not thinking about that too much though.

That awkward moment when you realize that you’re potentially creating some kind of chaos even though you really don’t want to.

  • Got a 94 on that feared biology paper
  • My birthday is in 17 days.
  • Not sure how to celebrate it
  • I need to study for my biology quiz and write an essay for american lit
  • Too tired.

I love how I get asked “what happened with you and [insert name here] you guys were so close and together, I remember”

I don’t really have an answer. I don’t know what happened. What I do know is that I’m not sad about it anymore.

That awkward moment when you’ve exhausted all advice you can get

And all you can do is let it play out. And I’m kind of tired. So I’m just going to block it out today.
Things I need to do today
  • My art history paper
  • study for biology quiz
  • look at statistics notes
  • take it easy.

I really need to do the last one. I’ve been thinking too much.

So, I hurt this guy’s feelings today. I told him I push people away. He says, “like you’re pushing me away right?”

I really didn’t know what to say. He’s feeling bad. And I’m sorry. But it obviously didn’t help. Ooooops.
Finished my biology paper!

Just have to do my references page. But I AM DONE! 12 pages. To think I was worried about not having enough pages. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.